Come out of black out only to walk down the aisle and marry the man of my dreams

"Chaos in the world brings uneasiness, but it also allows the opportunity for creativity and growth."

My life feels a little chaotic. Can you tell by the time between posts? Um. Yeah.

Here is just a glimpse into the chaos that I call my world:


It may not look as crazy as it feels. I feel like I'm being pulled in two different directions (or more). I feel extremely excited to be getting married. I love Adam with my whole heart, and couldn't dream of spending forever with anyone else. I'm not nervous about being married. However, I'm a nervous wreck about the wedding. The actual event scares the living hell out of me. Walking down the aisle in front of 200+ people, makes me want to throw up a little. I have butterflies just thinking about it. Being the center of attention for probably 48 full hours, makes me want to poke myself in the eye with a sharp stick.

So, here is my plan for the morning of the wedding, to hopefully curb my nerves.

Step one: Get up early, since I probably won't be sleeping anyway.

Step two: Yoga with Aunt Vin and bridesmaids in order to find some sort of center.

Step three: Lock the door after Aunt Vin leaves, so no one else can enter.

Step four: Take a long hot shower inside a locked bathroom, as to have no interuptions.

Step five: Pour a large mimosa. Recipe-champagne, orange juice, and pineapple juice (pineapple juice is key to cover up the taste of alcohol).

Step six: Black out mentally to deal with the stress of the morning.

Step seven: Come out of black out only to walk down the aisle and marry the man of my dreams.

Sounds good right? I thought so.

Oh and just to add to my stress, I decided a month ago that I was going to run a 5 mile race on the fourth of July.

P.S. I have never run in my life until the month of June. Awesome.