"Chaos in the world brings uneasiness, but it also allows the opportunity for creativity and growth."
My life feels a little chaotic. Can you tell by the time between posts? Um. Yeah.
Here is just a glimpse into the chaos that I call my world:
It may not look as crazy as it feels. I feel like I'm being pulled in two different directions (or more). I feel extremely excited to be getting married. I love Adam with my whole heart, and couldn't dream of spending forever with anyone else. I'm not nervous about being married. However, I'm a nervous wreck about the wedding. The actual event scares the living hell out of me. Walking down the aisle in front of 200+ people, makes me want to throw up a little. I have butterflies just thinking about it. Being the center of attention for probably 48 full hours, makes me want to poke myself in the eye with a sharp stick.
So, here is my plan for the morning of the wedding, to hopefully curb my nerves.
Step one: Get up early, since I probably won't be sleeping anyway.
Step two: Yoga with Aunt Vin and bridesmaids in order to find some sort of center.
Step three: Lock the door after Aunt Vin leaves, so no one else can enter.
Step four: Take a long hot shower inside a locked bathroom, as to have no interuptions.
Step five: Pour a large mimosa. Recipe-champagne, orange juice, and pineapple juice (pineapple juice is key to cover up the taste of alcohol).
Step six: Black out mentally to deal with the stress of the morning.
Step seven: Come out of black out only to walk down the aisle and marry the man of my dreams.
Sounds good right? I thought so.
Oh and just to add to my stress, I decided a month ago that I was going to run a 5 mile race on the fourth of July.
P.S. I have never run in my life until the month of June. Awesome.