Royally kicking Crohn's arse.

Well Crohn's has struck again. Adam has been laid up for the last few days with a wonderful complication from Crohn's disease once again. I effing hate this disease. It's tearing him apart and I just want to royally kick it's arse. He spent Thursday night in the hospital in a lot of pain, but went home Friday. He spent the entire weekend on the couch and I'm happy he did.

It just breaks my heart to see him like this. I want back the happy go lucky husband that I married. I want Crohn's disease to let go of him so I can have him back. I want to be able to go somewhere with him and not have him worry about what he's going to eat and what it's going to do to his body. I really want all of this for him, not me. I want him to feel better so badly.

We have a trip to Lake Powell scheduled for this week, and he's just not going to be able to make it. He missed too much work being sick, and will miss more for the upcoming surgery. And he is worried about getting sick out in the middle of nowhere. He has encouraged me to go, and I think I'm going to go without him. It makes me so sad, but I think it's best. My little brother is going, and it's the only time he gets to go this summer. So we are going to go and enjoy it for Adam.

His surgery isn't scheduled yet, but it will be scheduled in the next couple weeks, and hopefully after that, we can have our life back. He can have his appetite back, and gain some weight, and be stress free. Please, if you pray, pray for his health. Pray for healing. Because he really really needs it. And I just love him so so much.