One More Hit
His eyes glimmered in the sunlight the deep
Blue that only I seemed to notice. The kind that
Kept you watching, waiting for more. Expecting
To be sucked in. But always left out to dry. There I was
Standing with him, but feeling completely solitary, as if I was the
Only person left in the entire universe. My heart
Throbbed as if it would never feel right again. Like a headache that
Took over your entire face, made you
Blind to the world, to all reality. That’s what those eyes did to
Me. And yet all I ever wanted was more. Addicted.
Aching, yearning, craving, more of
Him. He took my hand and stared into my eyes.
I felt it
Again. Except this time, I could tell it was the last. His words
Wanted to seem genuine, like he might really be coming
Back. But I knew, in my core that he was not. Not
This time. I sensed the love in those deep sapphire
Eyes, but it was not the same. He was
Gone, the man I once knew, was gone. My addiction
Stolen by false highs and obsession, embezzled by the
Hunger for one more hit. And just like that, my heart
Dropped, as he flicked his Marlboro on the ground
Stamping the red ember into the dirt. The flame was
Out and so were my emotions. As he walked away, I blinked,
Expecting tears to carry me away, but they didn’t
Fall.
i'm going to go back and read the rest, but i just read the headache line as "like a racehorse that takes over your entire face". do you think that the substitution of racehorse for headache means something significant?
ReplyDeleteyou are seriously good. embezzled was the perfect word.
ReplyDeleteLoved it.
ReplyDeleteGreat word choice and mood.
Thx for sharing.
Deb
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